Lost

https://youtu.be/Uq9cBE86QtQ?si=DG2CwLO7SIcOCmD3

My brain is bleach and my body ammonia; together they are slowly poisoning me, killing me. I've been trapped and there's nothing I can do to escape, I can feel this body dying all around me and I'm not sure why.

What's the point of existence? Is it only pain? I'm angry all the time. Even in my best moments I'm so angry. I want to go back. I want for nothing but to be nothing though I know no matter what I do it is not possible.

Can't I just exist peacefully? In a form where I can rest with no disruptions? Why be left on a planet where suffering is the only thing the living know how to do.