Yap + advice needed

If I think about it the girl that I was friends with wasn’t so bad but the guy is so rude and insensitive like I thought we were friends but no he’s actually just a fucking asshole and I can’t believe I was friends with him. The girl was lowk the worst too but it was complicated. I drew for him when I could’ve done literally anything else and when I would’ve needed a check in he just decides to brush it off like “whatever if she wants to come back she’ll come back” and isn’t like there for me like a good fucking friend would be. It’s so annoying. I tried to be his friend for so long and then he does this do you know how unfair that is? I get I blocked them I get that but I left some applications open. If they really wanted to sort this out they would’ve messaged me there but no. I stick to my word and I hate them both and I’m better off without such scum in my life, can’t believe it either. I wasted a whole year A WHOLE FUCKING YEAR and like a half with them. I thought he’d be there for me but he ended up just not caring at all, this isn’t some stunt for attention I just was really fucking scared so I left and I planned on coming back but the second something happened I panicked and left more they act like I was still never there in the first place. I have ss but I’m not disclosing anything but god i

I hate them all soooo much.

It’s so ridiculous I poured so much love into them and this is what I fucking get back.