Drifting

!! sorry if i don't check this alot, I don't really know what to do or put here but im gonna start maybe using my page as a diary of sorts which might serve to be kinda difficult hejhh,,

basicallyy im inbetween homes following an altercation with my tenant, it's taking a while to get the ball rolling but im excited to emerge out the other side with my independence ! something I've never really properly felt before. i have a million other things on my mind other than this but im living with my lovely girlfriends who are effectively saving my life and to who i couldn't be more grateful for, they're giving me a roof to sleep under and relief from the constant stress. I feel actually comfortable around them as opposed to rotting in a home where nobody cared about how i felt every day. I'm excited to work towards a future i can smile at but im increasingly worried about how im going to get to that point. am i going to go to school or try to find a job i can hold down? I'm worried about working in a social environment because i feel like im always super clumsy, be that physically or just generally glossing over obvious facts mentally until it's too late and I look like a dumbass. none of this is coherent and im just rambling but i think that's what this website might have been for to an extent. maybe? idk i don't care im going back to sleep. thank you so much for reading <3