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I have a lot of strange thoughts. I'm sure we all do, but mine feel too strange.
I'm a big fan of Evanescence. Amy Lee is an amazing singer. (and she's HAWT!)
But sometimes.... I wish I could sing like her. But I'm a guy. Is that weird? Sometimes I even wish I looked like her, but again, I'm a fat ugly hairy man. I'd probably traumatize some people if I tried.
Maybe in another life I was meant to be a woman. Oh well, gotta deal with what I have.
Anyways, I've still been playing Half-Life. I don't have much to update this time, we're just making our way out of Black Mesa (da lab). Also, I drew Benrey. I had a dream about him last night and felt compelled to draw him. I don't know why.
Signing off now,
Anny B.
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Maya-tan
Oh! That's called Nitophilia! (The pleasure of creating irreal situations, thoughts, or images in your imagination.) It may have some defects on your mental health but, the good thing having Nitophilia is if you have a creative imagination that might help making art or any type of art from!
You might not know that your brain is having a daily small dose of dopamine from the pleasure of Nitophilia. I'm not a type of expert on these stuff, but i know it because of experience. Hope this helps!
inkliened
Yeah, Amy Lee is an amazing singer. She has such a beautiful voice. My Immortal always gets my tears going. I learned the piano part of the song, and sometimes will play along to the song playing in the background. My Mom showed me the song around 2012, and introduced me by saying "This is my favorite song, ever."
Also how tf did they write the song's lyrics when they were 15 like wtf.
Unrelated, I'm sorry, but I know My Immortal because of a salsa cover that is really popular here and I'm like I don't know which version I like better omg
(It's Mi Eterno by Davis Bravo btw)
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sex805machine
Totally natural to feel like that imo. I've had feelings like that since I was a teenager, so I just wanted to throw in my two cents. Gender is complicated, it's a broad spectrum. I feel like I want to be a girl sometimes and other times I feel like I want to be a man, but I personally have never felt the need to switch my pronouns or gender identity. Sometimes I just like to feel feminine and beautiful. For me that means doing drag and crossdressing for Halloween costumes or at Raves. It's fun and it makes me happy (and my wife thinks its super cute lol). I say all this because it was something I had a lot of anxiety about for years. thoughts like "omg am I trans what should I do???" "Do I have to do this? would it fix me?" "Would I be happier if I lived as woman?" The answer to all of those questions is that it's really for you to determine. You get to decide the specific nature of your gender and the way that you express it. It might be that you want to get on E and fully change your life around or it might be that you just like to think about how girls are pretty, or you might be anywhere in between. Transitioning and Gender Expression are just different ways to customize your character and part of figuring out a lifestyle that makes you feel happy.
Maybe all of that was unprompted but I guess I just wish somebody had said that to me when I was a kid. Would've saved me a lot of worry.
Seraph
Hey there, i hope this doesn't come off as pushy or inappropriate, but i just wanted to tell you that these kind of thoughts might not just be some silly fantasy, yk ? I can't know for you ofc, and maybe you're not ready to think about that right now which is okay, but just know that exploring your gender identity is okay. Maybe look up some older transfem experiences ? I myself am a transmasc non-binary person dating a trans woman, and I just wanted to tell you that denying who you are can make you miserable. Of course i don't know you personnally so you know better than me how you're feeling about your identity, maybe i'm just projecting and my comment is totally irrelevant to your case, but yeah ig i just wanted to give this little piece of advice. Feel free to take it or ignore it, once again, you know best :)
sodda/gordon
HOLY PEAK,,,,
passport123456
tji.s is awso,eme
Thanks. I'm surprised you're nice this time.
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