28/03/25 what's a thing between friends?

yo it's been a while since i updated yall on here so here we go. if you're reading this, good for you. maybe you can laugh with me because if we don't laugh, we'll cry.

alright so where i last left off on here, i was unemployed and feeling hopeless af. you'll all be pleased to hear that i finally landed a job after 3 MONTHS of applications and interviews and rejections. i start next week and it seems to be a really good company, i'm just so fucking excited. everything is starting to come together.

now, the only thing that's missing from my uk life is friends. i know NO ONE my age over there and it's honestly pretty fucking lonely, i can't even lie. so with me being back in ireland this week, i'm connecting with friends as much as i can because i really missed the craic agus ceol. i miss the connections, emotional and physical.

okay chat i'm gonna keep it real, i'm sHOCKING at keeping in touch. i only talk to 2 of my friends everyday over the phone.. and that's it. one of those friends is a fairly new one, we only became close like a week before i moved but he really helped me through my breakup and stuff. 

but here's the thing, he's had a crush on me for ages. like confirmed. i've known this the whole time we've been friends. so i met up with yesterday for a few pints in the pub and it was honestly so good to see him.

whenever the 2 of us are out drinking, we always walk home together because our houses are so close. last night was no different but then he suggested that we go back to his to watch a movie and i knew exactly where this was going.

of course i accept and to make a long story short, we had sex on his living room couch. honestly this was long overdue and i don't regret it. it was honestly so comforting just to feel human connection again, i cannot lie to yall. like the chemistry is actually there, it wasn't awkward, and we plan on fucking again tonight...

what is a casual thing amongst friends though? i go back to the uk on monday so may as well fuck around until then, literally. being real though, it's honestly one of the best hookups i've had period. like it was so natural, we had sobered up a lot by that point as well and we both wanted it to happen, like there was no pressure. but like, it wasn't awkward, we were making each laugh, clear communication, he was making sure that i finished and looking after me. it was honestly really healing to spend that time with him after my prick of an ex 3 months ago, like it was a completely different experience.

it's making me want to move back to be perfectly honest. like he is so good for my soul, you know.