Ugh

I keep having weird dreams, on Sunday-Monday it was about having a child, Tuesday-Wednesday it was about a surgery and they didn’t see me back up so my intestines were just hanging out. I have paracetamol in my blazer at school. Today in Chemistry my friend took my bottle and hid it. I got mad and as a joke I poured a bit of water in my hand and splashed it at her. Some hit the classroom assistant and like a cunt she told the teacher and me and my friend got in trouble and the teacher talked to us after we got food.

Also my gender dysphoria has been terrible recently, I keep thinking about ending it and how I’ll never be accepted if I come out. I live in a very homophobic country, the catholics and Protestants usually tolerate each other, just very Christian and I might be hurt, but at the same time do I not like to hurt myself? I haven’t done the “cake slicing” in a while but I’m so tempted because of my dysphoria.