i feel lonely

as of late, i have felt very lonely. i suppose i shouldn't feel this way, i have quite a few friends and siblings that support me. yet, i still do.

i recently just experienced my first breakup, which i have handled better than i had anticipated. sure, this has a bit to do with the lonely feeling, but there is more. 

i feel as though i struggle to connect with my friends, and this is one of the main reasons for this loneliness. we enjoy each other's presence, but i am someone who favors more meaningful connection, and someone who who often wants to talk about more emotional subjects. i feel as though my friends just don't share that same emotional depth, as they often tend to just want to talk about stupidly silly and funny things. while i am not at all against that, i just feel as though i have nobody to truly talk to about all of my thoughts and feelings.

it goes without saying that it obviously isn't my friend groups fault for not wanting more emotional connections; nobody is truly at fault. i just don't know if this friend group is right for me. but it's a small place where i live, everyone knows everyone already. it's isolating, to say the least.

i will document my thoughts and feelings here, as well as other random things, for anybody who is interested. if anybody knows any way i could maybe improve this situation, please feel free to comment your thoughts.

thanks for reading