idk ig like kinda of vent?

man idk what to do bc like irama has a crush on me and i slowly started to like her too but the thing is so ok my friend is addeline and she used to be in a friend group with zoe harlee and irama but irama started to like try to get her out of the friend group and the shitty thing is i told shyann about it on last nights call and they said "yeah maybe you shouldnt like irama" and now they dont like her but the thing is i still do because its hard to just lose a crush on someone so now i dont know what to do because like what if they know i like her and they dont like me because of that and i lose my best friend (at least best friend in my eyes ig) just for liking irama?? im genuinely like gonna have to try and hide it or something but i dont want to tell anyone in the mcdonalds OR pentagon (its a friend group) because i think if someones secret in the mcdonalds in the pentagon we can share it around but only doe the friend group gets to know but like this secret? i cant have it going around because then like shyann might tell the others and they'll then know i like her and see me as an asshole towards her and also my friend addeline like she cant know either that i do like her back because since she did that to her like i dont want to look like an asshole in her eyes or in anyones eyes i just dont knoe what to do its so complicated and i cant just not like her at this point because like thats kinda impossible and i feel so bad for addeline and shit but idk how to just not like her