life update ramble

it's been so long since i've made a blog entry on here and a bit since i've been on this website at all but hii! i don't have anything specific to say so i'm just gonna kinda ramble lol. I recently deep cleaned my depression room, i cleaned for 14 hours straight with only breaking to pee twice lol i stayed up for over 24 hours to finish cleaning it but ultimately lack of sleep and overworking my body caught up to me and now i've been resting for a few days until i comfortable be on my feet for more than 20 minutes lol. All the pain and aching has been so worth it though, looking around my room is no longer stressful and depressing haha and i actually feel relaxed in it now. I still have quite a bit to clean up but i have made sooo much progress with it and it looks so much better than it did before. I have to go through my clothes and get rid of any clothing that doesn't fit, isn't my style anymore or is damaged which hopefully won't take too long but i have a lot clothes so idk. i gained a lot of weight last year due to a health condition i have and it's been really messing with me. I no longer fit into any of my favorite clothes and i don't feel comfortable in my body anymore but i'm on medication that's supposed to help and they upped my dosage so hopefully that'll make things better for me and i can start working on losing weight. i'm trying to stay hopeful but it's hard. I think i'll keep some of my fave clothes that don't fit me right now in case i do lose weight and they fit again. i'm also gonna keep some of my clothes because i don't want them falling into a resellers hands lol. my best friend is gonna come over and hang out soon so i'll probably ask him if he wants any of the clothes before i donate them or something, not sure what size he is but i'll probably just let him pick through it idk. if you've read this far holy crap lol hi great job and thank you for reading my rambles haha