hello spacehey

its uh. been a while, huh? lets talk about that

Let's (actually seriously) talk about that.

I stopped using this thing like, 9 months ago. mostly because i cant stop using twitter or some shit. im chronically online, i know.

but, the REAL reason why i actually started frequenting spacehey last year was because of the ever-annual...

Seasonal Depression (and the Cycle Syndrome)

it has occured to me, that this has happened before. and it has! last year as a matter of fact, and because it's happened last year, i get to experience it again this year. 2025 my year for real!

but for serious though. spring is my seasonal depression's PEAK.

i dont want to thoroughly vent so ill keep this short, the cycle im stuck in is not doing fucking anything to actually do shit that is considered "productive" (AKA, getting a job, you filthy basement dweller), so I constantly get talked down by my parents, my laptop and/or phone get taken away, and I dont see them until God knows when.

and when i DO get them back, the same fucking shit happens again. coincidentally, the same time I lost my cellular device privileges is around THIS SAME EXACT TIME THIS YEAR, so honestly, i should just call it annual at that point.

so, what have I learned?

THAT I AM A FUCKING LAZY BITCH

im not gonna go around asking for help and begging for attention (even though this entire entry is LITERALLY just that) but i will say this.

im back.

for real.

probably

not really though but its because the school chromebooks log you out of everything when you close them for half a milisecond

and with that im done. good night, evening, morning, or whenever.

See you tomorrow

-Amelia 💜