get smth out of my chest

yall i just wanna yap about smth

i wanna get it out of my chest 

yes i was disappointed and my heart was beating so fast , yes i knew before this will happen , but it actually happened i felt disappointed and sad , yes i felt like im not enough, and even after everything we had, i wasn't the one who was w him , im not w him rn and im fine , but what actually he did rn made me so disappointed , I'll act like im fine while im fine fr but i still feel like why he came back telling me he wants me if he was doin another thing? i know i deserve better and better is not him at all , i know i didn't do anything wrong and im glad that i didn't, the last i said to him that i wish that he will feel like he needs me now or later and never find me , and the next time I'll block his ass and never even respond, he can't talk to mr now cuz he doesn't have any acc for me , and the same for me ion have any acc for him , im happy that im doin great rn but still , i wasn't enough? i stranded for his back when everyone left his ass , yes he is the problem never was me