a girl in her early 20’s reflecting on life and everything in between

Today's my 21st birthday, and I find myself in a reflective mood. While there aren't any grand celebration plans, I'm sitting here with my thoughts, feeling a mix of emotions that I need to pour out.

Lately, I've been struggling with this overwhelming feeling that time is slipping through my fingers. It's like there's this invisible timer counting down, and I'm watching everyone around me seemingly racing ahead while I'm still trying to figure out my path. The thought of being "behind" keeps creeping in, even though deep down I know everyone's journey is different.

Sometimes I scroll through social media and see people my age achieving all these milestones - dream jobs, relationships, travel adventures - and I can't help but question my own progress. But then I remember what I wrote in my profile about attracting unlimited abundance and being worthy of all that I desire. Maybe I need to hold onto that belief more tightly today.

I keep thinking about that quote about how life isn't a race, but it's hard not to feel lost when you're standing at this big milestone age without a clear roadmap. Twenty-one was supposed to feel more... certain? Instead, I'm here with all these questions about my future, my dreams, and whether I'm moving in the right direction.

But maybe that's okay? Maybe being lost is just part of finding your way? I'm trying to remind myself that even my favorite idols had their moments of uncertainty before they found their path.