A day in my life #4 (BONUS)

 A day in my life #4 (Drama bonus >0<)

  i didn't go to school today and slept until 11am, so nothing too crazy happened...BUT GUYS yesterday i was stressing about that one math test and it ended up being canceled cause the teacher is not here !!!!! im so freaking happy T-T

   today i played the sims 4, if you guys want to see my gameplay im gonna post about them on the bulletin thingy.

   SINCE i have nothing more to say let's talk about that one guy in my english class since you wanted to hear about it (actually only one person asked me to talk about it) ANYWAYS

  So yea to do it short, we became friends, i heard he had a crush on me but i acted like nothing since i seriously wanted a friend. so i got him to start playing video games with me and stuff. On the side i had my girl bff that was mad bcs i was playing with him so it made me mad too, so first issue. BUT also when we were together in school just walking and all, his friends kept annoying him saying "when you're with your gf you don't say hi anymore" and stuff and this was making me so mad because since when im his gf ??? i never had a bf and it's not about to change so i made him understand i don't like him and all. BUT WORST , his friends made racist remarks on me like "look he's with FATOUMATA" just bcs im arabic seriously...SO this situation was pissing me off.

  All that together made me crash-out and i told him he was boring and i don't want to hear about him anymore and that i didn't even care about him. that was kind of not really true since he was a great friend, well he was not very funny but that's just a detail. AND ALL THAT WHY ? for the reasons i told above but also mainly because i felt so insecure and i didn't want his friends to make fun of him for being friend with me bcs im ugly ??? idk why i did that but i was so mad and insecure and all at the same time that i destroyed our friendship with a hurried decision just bcs i felt ugly at this time and was so ashamed and didn't want that to have consequences on him.

   3 weeks after i apologized since i was so rude but he started wanting explaination of why i did that and i didn't want to tell him it was bcs i was insecure -_- so i started saying like "hey im here to apologize not to give explaination can you stop" and i started being rude again but he kept asking why so i told him that i think im a psycho/ paranoid schyzo girl and i destroyed my room bcs i was hearing voices xDDD and like that he should not be friend with me or everyone would make fun of him, he said something like "hope you get better i know something is wrong" and all and i blocked him. 

 so now he hates me, his friends hates me so, like, the entire masculine population of the school, idk why but this guy was friend with literally every guy. 

 yea tragic story but it's kind of better like that, he was a good friend but it was so awkward and all it feels like im free now, well, he probably think im insane but that's fine.

 SO yea guys now you got the whole story <3 (if my english is bad i'm sorry that's not my first langage :/)

don't hesitate to leave a comment guys !!! and give me your opinions on this situation :D

song of the day : i can't fix you - the living tombstone