I feel like yapping about a boy

So, I started talking to this guy yesterday through Instagram, and like, he seams very sweet and it looks like we have great compatibility online, but my online personality isn't 100% like my irl personality (he is aware of that). So we met up today (we go to the same uni), and idk, I was feeling very shy, cause you know, nobody is quite that open when they meet someone. But from how we (more specifically he) were taking online I was kinda excited more? But at the same time I apreciate that he was trying to respect my boundaries. Idk, I guess I was just too anxious or just put too much pressure on it? I also worry that I might just be creating this picture of him in my mind that doesn't match reality, like, I don't really love his voice (discovered that today), but through text it's easy to ignore. Anyway we might have a date on Saturday, and I'm just trying to not put too much pressure on it, and praying that he won't be late and actually make solid plans, cause uncertainty makes me very nervous. I also am not shure how far I'm willing to go, since I don't have a lot of romantic experience (and I know I should, but I haven't told him, but he might have gathered as much also), like, I've kissed people, but it was only ever girls at nightclubs (until recently I was pretty sure I was a lesbian), and I've kinda gonne out with a guy, but not really since it was during covid and I was 14 (and we never went past saying 'I like you' to each other. 


TLDR: I might like this guy or I might not, but don't know how far I'm willing to go to find out sinse I'm basically a baby in terms of experience.


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