dooming myself

about a week ago I joined a roleplay chat for arcane but I really don' know how to do shit there. OK I do know but I just don't wanna do anything. the idea is fine, but the reason why im so hesitant to do any of that stuff is bc when I lose motivation I can't do that shit anymore

guess what, I lost my motivation before I even started lmao

now I feel guilty for joinin but I don't wanna leave without saying ANYTHING