storytime about my toxic ex boyfriend! :3 PART 1!!!!!!

Hi folks! If you have been keeping up with my life recently, last week I dumped my toxic boyfriend! So here I am following up with a story time!!

There is multiple occasions where he did some not nice stuff but here's a recent occasion that happened between me and him, for this story time I will call him by a fake name, Grant

So a couple weeks ago I invited Grant to my school's Cadet Ball! (basically its a school dance for JROTC kids but with multiple other schools so theres gonna be a ton of people)

(This night ended with me crying bc of him lmao)

For context he goes to a whole different school from me, a private school that doesn't have JROTC so I'm the one who asked him out to the ball and paid for Grant's and I's ticket (I didn't care about the money bc I really liked him atp I honestly don't know why I stayed with him so long) When I bought the tickets, I bought it with my friends at my school!! And afterwards my friends and I chose our seats, of course my friends and I decided to sit at the same table all together, and Grant right next to me to avoid any awkwardness. So time skip to the day of the dance (3/15) we arrived to the ball at the same time and we walk to the ball hand in hand. Both of us arrived at the hotel where the ball was being taken place before the rest of my friend group, here's the first occasion of him saying something he probably shouldn't say at the ball:

After checking into the ball together, Grant tells me "Woah all the guy's uniforms are so nice" (The required male JROTC uniform for the ball) And as a joke I responded with "Wellll maybe you should switch to my school and join JROTC" and he responds with "Well my mom would never let me go to public school," and I was like "Dang why not lol?" and HE SAYS SO LOUDLY IN THE ENTRANCE OF THE BALLROOM BY CHECK IN "My mom thinks public schools are ghetto"  i died inside lmao, CUS LIKE ALL THE OTHER SCHOOLS AROUND US ARE LITERALLY PUBLIC. I was so embarrassed, I immediately told him "hey yk you cant really say that here-" I literally heard like two other girls from another school by us going "oh!" "That's interesting!"

SO YEAH THE FIRST OF MANY OTHER incidents that happened that night, okay so the next part I'll just say it straight, he started CRYING at the table where my friends and a few other people are sitting after I didn't let him push in my chair. He offered but I politely declined, as he sat I saw him sniffling and then so I was like I don't wanna cause a scene so I quietly asked him "hey what's wrong?" THEN HE GOES AND SAYS "Its just that you bought my ticket, you asked me out, I don't know how to be a man for you" I was kinda annoyed that he said that and cried because of that. I then had to reassure him that its fine for me to do things for him and that he's okay. I honestly did not know how to comfort him because this is literally our SECOND HANGOUT  outside of church together (I met him in church and can only see him there bc my mom is strict and doesn't allow me to date, I told him this multiple times since we started talking) After that speeches and meals are served, while eating he randomly went "Why do you even love me???" I had to reassure him again, I was kinda annoyed lowkey but brushed it off. After the meal was served I went to use the bathroom with my friends. Before leaving to use the restroom I told Grant ofc (remember this detail). I told them about about Grant crying and how I don't know what to do, because like I said I don't know how to comfort him because we are still learning about each other. While at the bathroom there was a massive line bc of all the people, so I decided to open my phone, it was on DND because speeches were being said previously, and boom there was 2 miss calls from Grant in a span of a few minutes :( After using the bathroom I went back to our table where Grant was, and I apologized for not answering his calls, then he goes "I heard what you said to your friend's at the line."

I died inside again, I felt bad, I should've been more careful and cautious,

so I began apologizing to him, I was genuinely sorry, I didn't mean anything bad I just needed advice because I don't know how to comfort him, then he said oh its fine, and as were talking in that moment he went to stand pretty close in front of me??? Like our faces close together.  I almost immediately took a step back, (bear with me reader, I fumbled at this moment) and I said "Woah what are you doing??" He goes, oh nothing I'm just trying to talk to you, and I was like oh okay, (its pretty understandable, at this moment ppl were going on the dance floor, music was sorta blasting ig he couldn't hear me) But I just felt like it was more than just talking?? I then went to express my boundaries with him, how I don't really feel comfortable with physical contact, how I don't really like hugs and how I don't feel ready for that kind of stuff!! I just wanted to make it very clear. And he was like "kay, but why?? you mentioned you had some physical contact with a previous person before"  (this statement is not exact bc I'm not gonna share the exact exact detail lol) and I just responded with "oh yeah I did but I just realized I don't really like physical contact after that" and then he goes on and ask why again and it was back and forth again with why I don't like physical contact and me saying I just simply DONT LIKE IT! :C  then I just said "I was experimenting and I just really don't like it!" My tone, I had to admit wasn't the nicest but I was just really annoyed that he just didn't understand THAT I DONT LIKE THAT STUFF :C LIKE I SHOULDNT HAVE TO REPEAT THAT

He then afterwards asked what should we do now? bc ppl were getting on the dance floor and stuff, but I just ended up not feeling like dancing AT THE MOMENT bc that ruined the mood, and he was like "oh okay, I brought a deck of cards to play card games??" And I was like cool lets play. I think it was best that we didn't go on the dance floor as well because he still sounded pissed and he still had that obvious look of just crying. He taught me how to play this game called speed while at our table and while he was dealing out the cards, and he went "oh yeah I was actually planning on giving you a kiss actually earlier" and I was like "oh." Then we got into this really uncomfy conversation :( 

[Context: I have a strict mom who doesn't allow me to date so me and Grant have to keep it a secret so I can only text him and I can't call or send voice messages to him, I made this VERY CLEAR and stated this MANY TIMES before we started talking talking]

He goes "So you don't like physical contact at all?" and I tell him again, "yup, I don't like it" then he goes "Well I actually don't really like texting and I prefer calling but I still text you anyways even when I don't prefer it... " I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO RESPOND :C so for awhile it was just awkward card playing while everyone else was dancing :C I paid for his 80$ ticket and mines too just to NOT DANCE AT ALL AT THE BALL THAT NIGHT :C 160$ just to not dance I felt very disappointed and upset, because it was something I look forward to doing. And not only did we not dance he said more upsetting stuff :(

ANYWAYS STAY TUNED FOR PART TWO I GOTTA DO MY CHEM WORK! I LOVE YA

UGH I DONT FEEL LIKE UPSET ABT HIM ANYMORE BUT IM PISSED I NEVER GOT TO TAKE A SINGLE STEP ON THE DANCE FLOOR :C