A troubling ticking of the clock. Please god i don't wanna leave school

It Spring Break for me now and I'm having a lot of trouble with it. I know I'm gonna waste all of it, that's a guarantee (2nd blog entry) and I realized at like the start of it. 

"Man, I only have 12 weeks left until I'm out of school" The point of no return. I gotta learn how to get a job, how to survive in a college dorm, how to buy shit for myself, how to clean beyond some half-assed vacuuming.

I turned 18 a month ago and I knew it wasn't going to change anything in my own mind, but that doesn't stop the train of time slamming into my chest and breaking every rib in my body.

I think I'm pretty immature for what I should be mentally, mainly due to my insane lack of social skills from never really going out for my entire life, from 1st grade to now. And covid knocking me out 2 years of middle school. I've never really tried that much to talk to other beyond the circle I've made in 6th grade. I'm still not over a girl I met as a freshman (long and sad ass story that I say later down the line) that shapes what I perceive in everything.

But What can You Do.