Homeschool!

I started homeschool for the first time this week, my school was giving me really bad mental health issues so I decided to take a step back and try an online curriculum, and so far, it's actually nice. I miss my friends, they haven't been wanting to talk much lately, I hope possibly it gets better during the weekend? I'm not sure. My new computer came today, and it's really cool! I can play small games on it and do my schoolwork more conveniently, even possibly in my bed. Might start using spacehey on there instead of my phone, which will be fire!!! Idk, so far I have mixed feelings about this homeschool thing, but at least I've stayed clean. 

I think once it continues to warm up I'll start feeling better, my grandma's staying in town for the whole summer this year! (She usually only stays like a week or two), so I think things will get easier. Although it is because my great grandparents are dying, but to be honest it's getting to be their time, they had to restart my great grandpa's heart the other day, which is so weird to me, because he grew up on a farm and his entire job was landscaping, after he retired he kept doing landscaping jobs for free because he enjoyed to be active, he's always been healthy for his age, it's just such a whiplash. My grandma on my dad's side (his mom) is getting worse breathing, and she's having more mobility issues. It feels like everyone is dying all around me, and I haven't noticed in all the years I spent dealing with trauma, grief, and my own death. I just don't know what to do with this timeline jump, it's unreal.

Sorry for the ramble, I doubt anyone will care or read this, I just need to put this somewhere.