self loathing

AHHH, I WANT A GIRFRIEND SO BADDDD!!!!! Every girl I've had a crush on so far gets a girlfriend so quickly:( I don't know how y'all get girlfriends I think I forgot how to flirt to be honest. AND I have to be the one to walk up to them cause people said that apparently, my resting face is intimidating. I don't know how to fix that I've tried slightly smiling but I don't know if feels awkward. I also went to petco when they were doing a cat shelter thingy and AHHH I SAW A ORANGE CAT AND HE WAS SOOO CUTE. The cat literally looked like garfield. sadly, I don't know if I have the living situation to buy a cat so I didn't get him.