letter 6; february 2025

February was my favorite month so far because of the numerous memories we made, and how comfortable we had gotten with each other in terms of showing affection. I remember I participated in Mamak Mia, and you came to watch it and I remember introducing my friend Justin to you. We went to eat something before leaving to go home and we both got fries and sundae together. I remember how you held my hand as we walked together and it brought back memories of how we almost held hands in December but I pulled out last moment..but this time I didn't. I tried to live in the moment as much as I could, savoring the fact that our fingers intertwined so perfectly. The fact we fed the food to each other-I really wished that moment lasted forever. I was flustered by how romantic you suddenly were but I liked it a lot, I really did. Before leaving, we hugged each other and at that point of time, I would've sunk into you if I could. 

10th February, on my sister's birthday we went to visit the reptile store again, where you asked me to be your valentine and I was in shambles honestly. But my answer was obvious and I kept both the card and the flower you gave me on my desk, alongside the conch you gave me in November =^^= I remember on Valentine's, Diny persuaded me to put on the red dress I got and we went out together to eat and hang out. I remember how you took a picture of us with your arm around my shoulder-a direct difference from when you were hesitant to do that back in November. Small things like these show how far we'd come along as we continued to spend time with one another. Ah-and the gifts I made for you for Valentine's? I stayed up all night making the board collage for you and I hope you like it :") (keep my baby octo safe too..). That's just another thing about me. If I love you, I'd rather convey it through gifts or written words instead of verbally since I'm not the best at it. To be honest, I still struggle to say "I love you" out loud, not because I don't have those feelings for you, but because I grew up in an environment where verbal affection really wasn't a thing so it feels odd to say it out loud. But, I'm learning! and I'm getting better at it :D 

The hike we went on..oh my god. It's hands down one of the best experiences I've had with you and I'm so glad we went. I remember your remark when you felt my temperature, "oh you're hot-in both ways" and that's still something I giggle about from time to time. To be so far from prying eyes, into the secluded trails,, it only increased the tension. The moments we weren't chattering, we would be engaged in long tight hugs, hugs so good that I've been craving for more =@@=. I remember when you tried to pick me up but I stopped you mid-way citing the very first thing that came to my mind. In reality I would've loved to be picked up and I have no idea why I didn't allow it to take place..BUT I WANNA BE PICKED UPPPP WAAAAAAA 
Whining aside, the fact we saw so many animals; a snake, monitor lizards, monkeys and more-it was fascinating. I remember how we got up on the treehouse and listened to each others' heart beats before finally preparing to leave. The whole experience was quite amazing, I'm so glad that we went :'). 

,, There was a moment where I began having second thoughts regarding you but I quickly put them to rest. No thought could be powerful enough to disrupt our relationship and for me to place doubt on if I loved you or not. I was absolutely certain of my feelings and quitely prepared for march, your BIRTHDAY MONTH !!!