My moms dream

I pray and hope that in another universe my mom chose herself over my dad. Ik that I wouldn't exist rn if she did, but her dreams are worth way more.

I'm tired of seeing her like this.

She's the best mom I could ever ask for, she gave up everything so that I and my other siblings could have anything.

My mom put others before herself and I just wish I can go back in time and talk to her. She deserves the world.

I hate the fact that meeting my dad and having me/my siblings, prevented her from living her dream. Everyone deserves to reach for their dreams but my mom didn't even get the chance.

My moms first love was my dad,  he was and still is awful to both me, my siblings and mom. My mom didn't get to experience that warmth young love where they go on dates, he buys her flower, they watch a movie together, no, she didn't experience that. She didn't get to know the feeling of having a loving partner who swears to never leave her. All my mom has now is me and my siblings.

I hate to see her suffering just because she made the wrong decision, she really does not deserve it.

I pray that I get a high paying job in the future so I can spoil my mom, the same way she did to me.

I really love my mom. Without her I would be lost.

But there's nothing I can do abt it. The past is the past.

So in another life I can only hope she chose that one guy she tells me abt in her stories, and I hope she's living happily with another family.