04

Greetings to whoever is reading this. I haven’t been updating because I’m not home with my computer (that’s why there’s no editing to the blog and it’s a default layout), I managed to get away with some friends I haven’t seen in a long while.

I go back home Friday though, but I seriously don’t want to. I know I’d just be stuck in my room because anywhere else I see my mum. I’ve been having a fair bit of fun, ate out at a restaurant for the first time in years, so that was nice I guess. I feel off, empty almost. It’s weird how I’ll bottle everything up inside of me and how much I’ll overshare once given the chance. My friends probably think I’m a freak.

I told them about some things my mum had been doing. It’s not fun to sit here and have them staring with wide eyes saying that it’s borderline incest she’s been doing. I didn’t think it was that bad but now I’m certainly thinking about it.

It’s just weird. I’m weird. It’s embarrassing to have said all of that—for them to look at me like that. I know they felt sorry for me. The frowning. “That’s so sad”. 

I’m glad they care, I guess, but I can’t deal with feeling pitied. That’s the worst possible thing I could feel.

But yeah. I’ll try to update again once I get home because I hate the way this looks without my layout :/

Good day.