I think I'm going crazy

I've been under ridiculously immense stress lately, and my surroundings are only making it worse. My nighttime paranoia isn't helping either, it's gotten even worse. I've been seeing things and hallucinating since I was a kid, and I can't sleep properly. My job is killing me, it's so demanding, and my partner... he's just as bad or worse than me, and I don't think I can tell him about all this. I don't want to burden him with my nonsense. I feel like I'm drowning in a glass of water, but I can't even cry at home or anywhere else In my bed with my silly thoughts and my childish whiningI really hate this with all my being, it disgusts me to be like this. I really hate this with all my being, it disgusts me to be like this.