letter 5; january 2025

The new year had begun :D and with the new year, came a lot of new experiences and memories. I remember posting myself in a black dress in the early days of January and you called me pretty; I've honestly lost track of the numerous times you've called me pretty or given me a similar compliment, but I always try to deny it whilst I'm a literal melting mess inside-or start to blush when you don't look. To be complimented by you is the highest form of praise I want to achieve. ^^ 

I remember when your favorite reptile store opened in a mall close to our campus and you seemed quite excited about it. We visited the store together and admired their selection of turtles, snakes, geckos, hamsters and more. I remember how in a bout of excitement you grabbed me by the shoulders and shook me, and I stood there dazed. If it were up to me, I would've collapsed into your arms and stayed like that forever. I remember that you bought juice for the both of us; I got lychee and you got watermelon and how I accidentally hit you with the straw ^^""

We began hanging out so much more and I began getting so much more comfortable with you and so did you. January marked the beginning of my craving for affection, holding your hand, closing up the gap when we were next to each other and compliments of all sorts. I remember how flabbergasted I was when I saw you dressed up for the CCC event, and how my heart fluttered when I saw you. It couldn't be possible for someone to be ever as beautiful as how you were that day, how you are, everyday. (You talk about how good I look in red while you look absolutely breath-taking in it..) I remember how I ranted to my friends about I was greedy and wanted more hugs because the first one wasn't enough apparently but was too scared to initiate anything if you won't do it first..

I remember when we went out to eat and go clothes shopping together and how you bought one of the tshirts I chose for you :”) you looked so good in it. Honestly, navy blue and dark grey suit you so well, especially the fitted tshirts. But again, you look so good no matter what you wear. I remember the time when you wore the pink hoodie and I wanted to hug you so bad :”(. 

With that, January came to an end. I found myself thinking of you and craving for you more than ever now; but everything only intensified in February when..