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theoretically i will be updating this every day and throughout most days !!! mostly just rambling probably because i Love rambling and i love talking to the internet . idk experience my days with me or something :3 i have no idea how to blog

March 25th, 2025, Tuesday

today i wake up feeling normal. i would use the word apathetic but that feels slightly too edgy lol

i had a cup of coffee because i cannot survive without coffee in the morning

normally i have archery practice on tuesdays but the season is over now. this will be very weird i will have so much free time.

today i have brought the brothers karamazov to read. i just recently got it from the public library. i would continue to read the essential guide to prescription drugs but that book is actually mine that i bought and this one has a bit of a time limit.

my knees hurt very bad! very hard to keep up with my friends when it feels like my knees have nails being hammered into them

no breakfast because their sausages look like they'll kill me

got a 100% on my biology test!! super happy

i will decorate this a little when i'm home :3 but i will also very likely be playing hsr when i get home so it might take me a bit to remember.

just went through the worst chest pains ever. anyways we're starting a new song in band class today

March 26th, 2025, Wednesday

two cups of coffee for breakfast today i am WINNING

i haven't experienced agonizing chest pain today so that is. very nice i suppose. but my legs hurt now. the stairs are my enemy and i have to go up and down the stairs all the times. my classes are ground level, upstairs, ground level sometimes, upstairs, ground level, upstairs, ground level, downstairs. hell on earth i tell you

crackers and pipeline punch for lunch yummy yummy

this substitute is actually my arch nemesis i pray on his downfall every day i hate him oh my godddd please give me the strength to deal with this evil man

got a 100 on my medical abbreviations test 🎉🕊 expected but still i am happy

dinner is meatloaf and macaroni and green beans. I FUCKING LOVE MEAT OH MY GOD if i was an animal i would be a carnivore i love meat so much but im evil and picky about meat. i only really like chicken and deer and beef and very specific sausage. and i dont really like steak i much prefer ground meat but deer steak in small pieces is okay. i'm a fake meat liker but i don't care ground beef is so good

March 27th, 2025, Thursday

bread for breakfast today AND coffee. solid food before 12 pm this is revolutionary.

have to do STUPID BLOOKET in biology I HATE BLOOKET I HATE BLOOKET I HATE BLOOKET..

installed sunday themes on my 3ds 🙏 i love my awesome modded 3ds

hamburgwr for lunch i love burger

had church today. we didnt have it on monday because half the church was sick so we had it today. i kind of dont like it when anyone besides our main youth leader does our lessons because his lessons are the only ones i like. whatever though. the kids were loud today but i got to play piano

bowl of rice for dinner :3 i had a few chips at church but usually i don't really like the food they serve. i'm horrendously picky unfortunately

had a bit of a revelation in the shower tonight that maybe your joints are not meant to click when you move them? maybe? both of my wrists and hip joints click repeatedly if i move them in a circular motion and one of my ankles also does that. i think my neck does too but i dont like moving my neck around too much it freaks me out

doctor's appointment tomorrow.... i will update with results if we get anything conclusive!! :3

March 28th, 2025, Friday

coffee as always ... also had a little carton of milk because my boyfriend gave it to me

we got awards today for our test scores :3 i got proficient in math and distinguished in reading. i only got second place top score in reading :( i got first place last time but whatever i guess. and i'm also upset about not getting distinguished on math but Whatever. 

i have this weird problem where if i'm not the best i am immediately the worst. i have to be better than everyone or nothing is worth anything. if i don't get distinguished on the final math test i will actually be distraught LET ME GET DISTINGUISHED I AM BEGGING 

the event stuff today was SUPER FUN! we had a few seniors do a concert it was so fun and cool i had sooooooo much fun today

i had a funnel cake and half of a dr pepper as a treat and i had a burger again for lunch. i am very repetitive with what i eat most of the time

at my papaws :3 i love being here i get to call my friends

also there was NOTHING conclusive with the doctor. it's not arthritis and my inflammitory/autoimmune panels were negative. i'm being referred to a cardiologist now i guess. i would looove to know what the hell is wrong with me !!!! whatever

March 31st, 2025, Monday

sorry i didn't update over the weekend! i just didn't really have anything to update with lol :3 i was at my papaw's house and that was basically it

some very kind stranger on the internet did however give me a toyhouse code so i now have a toyhouse account !!! super duper extremely cool i've wanted to make a toyhouse account but was too scared to ask anyone... but i worked up the courage and they were very friendly!

i have really just been drawing a lot the past few days lol. i am full of energy but only the artistic kind ... i really wanted to draw outside today but it was really cold and my ass cannot handle the cold at ALL

working on refs for one of my ocs is making me realize i have No Idea what sort of clothes fit him. honestly i don't draw clothes on him most of the time at all. very difficult finding an outfit for him that suits him but is also simple enough for a ref sheet. fighting for my LIFE.

April 2nd, 2025, Wednesday

i do not like april fools .......

it's autism awareness month now or something i am going to make everyone Very Aware. because this is my birthday month. 

ALSO GUESS WHAT IS SO FUNNY my 16th birthday will be sunday themed right. THE PARTY IS ALSO ON A SUNDAY! and that sunday is 4/20 giggle haha funny number

apparently they're trying to ban tiktok again ?????? idk but i'm saving videos of sunday just to be safe .... can never have too many videos of him on my little flash drive.... i love my flash drive a lot by the way i think he is very cute. he has 64 gb of storage. i give electronics personalities for some reason and all my electronics are cute and loved

today i want to play hsr but i also want to get stuff done. after i finish cleaning this little bit of stuff i have left to do in my room i will do some dishes and maybe fold a bit of laundry if my mom does not get to it first. it's like a race every day who can get to the chores the fastest

breakfast was a bagel and dinner was beef stew. i was so fucking excited over that beef stew i've wanted stew for WEEKS. so good i busted a nut

my mom made blueberry bread. i love her cooking and her baking but i do not fuck with the blueberry bread. i don't like blueberries. she don't even fuck with the blueberries . the blueberry bread is for my dad

April 9th, 2025, Wednesday

i am very bad at updating this :3 my life is just kind of boring sometimes really ! but boring is okay to me because boring means i am in a good routine and even if the days sort of just feel like theyre repeating i am okay with it.

i am almost sixteen that has been freaking me out a little. my state recently just changed the law so we can get our permit at 15 though so my mom has been trying to get me to get it early. i might idk i am very scared of driving

other than that theres like literaly nothing going on ........ lol