I miss my ex

guys i SWEAR i was starting to get over him its been months and im still in contact a things were complicated yadayadayada but this sitaution thingie that was going on was really working for me and i was REALLYY getting over him

BUT THEN this cute guy commented on my tiktok some "this is my type i fear" or somethikng allong the words of that an i replied to that comment "ni hao fine shyt" CUZ WHT NOT ITS FUNNY LEAVE ME ALONE but then my ex sent that comment to my bsf (they are family its not weird that there still in contact trust) and started questining who was that if i got a new bf WEL OBVIOUSLY I DIDNT CUZ I WAS STILL YEARNING FOR HIM my bsf replied like why do you care and dont u have a gf? CUZ HE TOLD US HE DID AND YK WHAT HE REPLIED HE SAID "no i dont what makes u think that" WEL MAYBE THE FACT THAT U TOLD US U DID

how bad it sounds i was kinda glad he didnt have one it makes me feel relieved that im not THAT easy to replace 

anyways my bsf sents me all the screenshot of the texts they had and she starts telling me he 100% misses you yadayadayada i dont think he does or i dont wanna think he does i dont wanna become delusional over this and just get dissapointed again yk

i trust her judgement tho they are super close and she has been the person he talks to if he has issues in situationships and relationships for YEARS she told me he never acted with his other exes like this and that he didnt really care yeah obviously the repost and story stalking but not this especially after 5 MONTHS

i kinda want to believe her but i dont wana get dissapointed and idontknow what to dooo

he texted me yesterday wellactually he sent me a tiktok of this couple for there anniversity the gf got a custom made cd with all her fav songs and i started collecting cds a little while ago and he knows that so i replied "me soon TRUST" and he asked me like with who and i was like thats a ery good question and then he said the name of the guy that commented on my video and i acted dum obviously but like do yall think he was being jelly or im being delusional 

i dunno guys i just miss him.