EVERYTHING IS SO LAME

Everything is so boring. It makes me cry. There is too much going on all the time yet none of it holds any substance. I miss when I was younger and didn't use streaming services or have socials. I miss watching old dvds my dad had laying around and listening to old cds on my radio. I miss going outside all the time and riding bikes with friends. Now nobody wants to do anything but stay at home on their phones. It's so lonely. I miss my box tv I played pac-man on. I miss enjoying things rather than simply consuming content. I wish I could go back to that. I miss when I had only heard of Netflix in passing and running inside from playing to watch my favorite shows on cable. I miss the printed photos of my whole families lives, sitting down with my grandma as she told me the stories behind them. I miss not feeling bombarded with too many thoughts. I miss how things used to be. 

I got a cd player/ radio a couple years ago but I didn't appreciate it then. I do now though, and I just bought some old cds for it. I love it so much. For my 16th birthday, i REALLY want a digital camera. That way i can store all my memories and eventually print out my photos. I've also been reading! I just finished Animal Farm by George Orwell. I also have 3 out of 4 of the twilight books. They aren't good but it's a guilty pleasure. I've been buying things from sellers online instead of amazon or fast fashion. They have been much better quality and also just feel better. My buddy from school recently got an ipod! It's uber cool!!! I want one! I need to buy some blank cds to burn them. I just can't use my laptop for that because it doesn't have the dvd thing. His does though, he said he could do it for me if i get the blank discs. 

I've been making summer plans for this summer and I have a whole list. I just need to drag my introverted friends out of the house. 

Anyways, you should like ttly hit me up if you feel the same and just like, wanna chat or whtvr! ^_^

-3L3CTR1C 3M