somewhere

i want to be somewhere beautiful. with beaches but also a forest near by that i can run to. i want to be somewhere that has everything. i can't stand the country and the midwest when i feel as if i'm breaking through the road cracks and seeping through all of the train tracks that are older than my own existence. i can't stand the way people talk to me, they think this is all there is, vape shops and long roads that go to nowhere. i want to be somewhere that there is more than this, can there be more than this soon? will i see more soon? i need to know. there are forests but none of them compare to the ones i see in videos, the ones that never end and don't have hunting signs. i don't belong here, i want to walk through sand at night time, walk my way down to a place i can go to in the middle of the night. i was not meant to heal here, i can't ever afford being somewhere else so, is this the best i will ever accomplish? or will i sit here and ponder of what my life could have been like if i wasnt stuck here. somewhere is better. somewhere is kinder to me.