I hate my mom

I can’t seems to understand how this woman work.

She is always screaming at me, annoying and pissing me off.

She keeps telling lies and trying to be nice while being a huge hypocrite.

She say she is proud of me but never pay attention to things I am proud.

She say she barely know me but while I talk about things I like she can’t seems to even be interested and cut me off to talk about something else.

Everytime she put me down saying i am too stern with peoples while others say i am too sweet and smiling with them.

She shame my body, and don’t hesitate to sexualise me since I was 6.

Every time I try to speak to her she say how much it is important to respect mothers in islam. And I am basically a sinner to defend myself