I really really can't understand anything

Firstly sorry for bad English :p

The subjects at school are just so...  I don't know, they're not that hard. But listening classes are so hard. After 10 minutes my brain can't take anything. There was a exam today and it was terrible. I know I can understand this class if I study. THİS İS THE PROBLEM. I can't do this thing. Like, I'm ready, I will study this time... Then BOOM my brain is not at here anymore.

Not only in things I don't want to do. I love drawing but I just can't do, you know, it's too hard to sit down for doing something. This is the thing I hate. My brain knows it won't be boring but only my brain knows. Not my legs, my arms. 😮‍💨

Probably just cuz being lazy. Even I'm too lazy for watching my fw anime. And doesn't being lazy make u a boring person. This is one of my biggest fears. Just go to school or job. Eat foods. And sleep. Same day tomorrow. And the other day. And the other day. And...  Life goes like that. Like a responsible adult. 

Don't know how to finish this blog so bye 👾