the evolution of my style!

hiii! i hope you're doing exceptionally on this fine wednesday evening. for today's blog post, i wanted to talk about myself a little bit and talk about how i have the style i have today! i feel like my fashion has changed dramatically. as a kid, i was always wearing fun patterns and colors, but i have definitely lost that flair because of how much i like dark silhouettes. i wanted to focus on my fashion in the last 5 years, because i feel like at that point in time i was being influenced by social media a bit more. despite not being original whatsoever, i like the clothes i wear. i feel like copying and inspiration are two very big differences, but that's a different conversation i wont be having. lets get started!

2019 & 2020: the beginning of my evolving style

before covid hit, i was wearing cargo pants, ripped baggy pants, and shoulderless tops. i was assimilating into what were known as indie kids at the time. that was THE style; oversaturated colors, white air force 1s, and baggy high waisted jeans. it was a unity like no other! 

however, covid ruined all of that... being stuck inside resulted in endless hours of being on social media. however, i confided in these tiktoks because they just were getting everyone through a rough time. as i was scrolling on tiktok, there were many people who were still getting ready while being stuck in their own house. they worked with what they had, whether it be creative makeup and outfits, or photoshoots around the house. no matter what they did, their outfits always stood out. Whether it be the accessories or the detailing on a top, it was always something. this inspired me to begin experimenting with how i dressed. i had the same silhouette for 2 years, and didn't want to enter high school looking the same once again. this mindset, being influenced by creators, and always being on tiktok led to me venturing out with what i wore: lacy tops, skirts, and leg warmers! i like to call this style the yesstyle apocalypse. essentially, yesstyle is an online asian marketplace, where i got a lot of clothes from during quarantine. i felt very different, but it was the first time i ever tried wearing something out my comfort zone. i loved it, but i was also wearing my shoulderless tops and cargo pants. i was experimenting, seeing which looked better. 

2021: i was extremely conscious. about everything. 

eventually, school was back full time. i was a sophomore at this point, and there was been an incorporation of edge into my clothing. darker colors, ripped tights, and an overbleached underdye on my head. being around people and interacting with them full time again after two years made me realize how different everyone was. honestly, this made me sooo insecure: was i doing too much? i liked what i wore but i felt extremely out of place. i started to incorporate baggy pants into my outfits because i felt more comfortable in them. eventually, i started to have a feminine top half with a more masculine bottom half; small top, big pants. this felt like the best thing to wear because i didn't want to stick out like how i was. over time, i became more familiar with brands over quarantine - ed hardy, affliction, among others - and incorporated these into my wardrobe. these made me feel extremely edgy and emo, but also sophisticated and like... different from everyone. not in a cringe way! but just not basic i guess. however, i was still insecure during this time, and extremely closed off. i didn't wear the feminine side of myself for a while. getting used to new people, especially considering the circumstances i was in, it was just not a good time. 

2023 - now!

skip to the end of junior year, i definitely felt better about myself. i felt comfortable in my environment, finally, and finally started wearing more tight-fitting outfits. i was feeling hopeful for the summer that laid ahead of me. and i felt correctly! i had a lot of fun, made a lot of new memories, and was extremely confident in myself. i was always at the beach and wearing small shorts, and i just felt extremely free for the first time in a while. the summer of 2023 was a reemergence of my femininity. i was extremely happy with myself! i was able to embrace both masculine and feminine sides of myself; whether i be wearing a big tshirt with jorts or a tube top with mini shorts, i began to love who i was. this was monumental to what i was wearing: by the time school started and beyond, i started to express not just one side or another, but just me! 

my fashion has came a long way, but im very happy with how i display myself to the world! fashion is something that keeps evolving everyday and im so happy that it allowed me to find my style! just remember that there is always something new awaiting us every day :) i hope a fur- lined jacket is awaiting me :P

well, thats all folks! i hope you enjoyed another anecdote about my relationship to fashion ^_^ i hope this makes you feel not as isolated when coming to terms with how you dress, it takes a long time to figure out what you like! this is only a small part of my journey, and my style will keep evolving for the years to come, just like yours! see you soon!

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