March 19, 2025

I’m back writing here. I’m supposed to be studying for my maths and chemistry test but i kinda don’t feel like it, just like yesterday. My hair is a mess, just like yesterday too.

I was in the restroom and realized I have a hickey. Or more like the red spot that appeared on my clavicle in the morning two days ago, looks like one. Which is kinda embarrassing cause i didn’t even realized it was still there, until some minutes ago. And the only person I would care if they think I’ve been with someone, wouldn’t care or wouldn’t notice or I mean I have not run into them today and I’m probably not going to.

But whatever anyway.

Going back to the fact I’m not studying for my exams and i didn’t studied yesterday and I haven’t payed attention to any class this semester. So in short I’m fuck up and I’m writing a new entry here.

I need to make an academic comeback so bad. But being honest I don’t have a motivation. Being for real here i don’t like a single thing about my school. I’m probably not even going to university. I’m probably not even living long.

Sometimes i wonder how I went to the smart and (idk like) cool (ig) kid to this.

I wish I could one day wake up and be a completely different person.

One day I’m going to do that.

Just failed my math exam. I won’t let this happen again.