a perfect, risky friday.

i hardly even know how to explain this rn, cuz my mind is all over the place abt this

this friday i have no school, and my mom, dad, and my sister wont be home for a few hours. my boyfriend and i rlly wanna hang out and have time to ourselves, so we've arranged a plan to hang out and stufff for a few hours that day in secret :3

my parents dont rlly allow me hanging out with boys inviting them to my house, and OFC i get why, ive had my fair share of creepy dudes trying to do shit to me...but. my bf isnt like that, and if anything, the most intimate thing we would do right now is cuddle and MAYBE make out. i just want someone to love, not someone to LUST over, yk?

i have this whole thing planned out for friday, the times my parents leave, the times he should come over, how long we would have to hang out, when my family would get home, the escape plan, ALL of that. im just hoping it srsly goes well. but there is some stuff im afraid about though.

i JUST started my period today, and USUALLY...the first two days are bad. REALLY BAD. pain, bloating, leaking, and its just so...inconvenient. im hardly even sure if i'd be comfy enough to cuddle with him, as much ad id love to, because i'd be in so much pain... and like if anything ELSE happens, like bcs of me being bloated or potentially leaking, im just afraid he'd be grossed out..

but other than that, what if something goes wrong?? like one of my parents actually decide to stay home that friday, and my boyfriend goes outside for no reason? or my parents come home early and catch me with him??  ive never done anything like this before, and im just as anxious as he is most likely.

but if everything goes right, i'll have him all to myself :3 we could even go outside and have a mini date somewhere!! it'd be cutee ^_^ though, im not sure if just hanging out at my place is considered a date.. ive dated 5 people before, and i still feel like i know nothing. Sigh.

i hope this goes well.

-Cozmite