So Close Yet So Done (Friendship Issue)

You know what I hate about friends? Acting like the nicest bitch you've ever spent with.

And the fact you tried to adjust but they're the ones who never change... 

For Context: It's about my close friends who's less interested in me but has PROBLEMATIC approach. But here's the full story. 

In the February 14th 2024, I made some new friends, one of them introduced me to her friend whom I call her (For Privacy) Crystal. Crystal is also an art freak like me, she drew Helena which surprised me by the way. When I get to meet her, Crystal was a little shy and then for the 2nd day, now she's engaged with me so we did a lot of fun throughout the early 2024 and summer. 

We do a lot of FaceTime, Hangouts, Decent Conversations, and All of that! She convert herself as an Emo. 

However sometimes when we go out, she's always been like... depressing, I meant the she sit somewhere else having a bad mood. When I try to ask her, she doesn't say anything and she has to keep that to herself. And she did that several times, I almost lost my patience and I just wanted to make her say just stop acting depressed. BUT IK IT'S BAD! And I questioned myself if I'm a bad friend? That question is gonna be important later... 

When she stopped and keep herself together, and we go back to our usual stuff like hanging put, ect. Then she did it again, acting all depressed when I gave her some concern, sometimes when I say hi to her, she barely noticed me and walks away. And she found out for herself that she's ignoring me and apologize which I gave her a chance and gave myself some patience. But then it never changes, she's still have depressive episodes ONCE AGAIN, my patience is wearing thin and all of that made me think did I do something wrong? She's often nice but I can't be rude to her so I should be the ONE to act more self-aware. Whenever that cycle of her getting depressed and then acting normal I wasn't getting used to that but now I did... 

Crystal is now friends with my sister's friends which makes sense by the way considering they are the same grade level. Now she's getting more closer to her other friends which makes things more complicated. I grew impatient and then tried my best to do so, it's been a few months we've been friends and I don't want to cause any drama or weird friendship dynamic. She's being ignorant and I was being more approachable, when I asked her something, I was more a bit enthusiastic but for her she sounded more apathetic. So I act more apathetic as well without offending her... And I felt bad, she was understanding but I doubt that I wasn't being nice to her, it made me think to recall back my actions if I DID AT LEAST DO SOMETHING WRONG. When I rant about it to my friend, I was really upset, I tried to give a bit more context but then I thought this was all in my head and I was being an ass to Crystal. When I message her, she ghosted me, but randomly she sent an Instagram reel FOR NO REASON. She demonstrated I was the hungry one and she's the one who eats me. I was deeply offended... Cuz what the hell was that? And why doesn't she sent this? Not to mention when I approach her, she's apathetic but then she turn to look at her friends SHE WASN'T.  And that day own, we barely talk... I met her yet again at my sister's birthday, it was so bitter of her getting close to her friends and never tried to acknowledge me... 

Basically I was left out and I wish I could leave this party. And when I approach to Crystal last time... It was still the same. I asked her how she feels and she always says it's terrible, but it was a rhetorical question. Do she seemed nice but I don't see it anymore. And I just left after that. 

I rant that back to my friend Jean, at first she was understanding and think it was all in my head. When I rant it again, she understood and sided with me. She felt the same way and I'm glad she finally did. Jean sees Crystal as a brat. So she's practically a practice child. She never changed her ways.  I admit, I love loathing that person who leaves me behind. I thought we're close and she wasn't even genuine. I can't tell played nice. 

Now I never talked to her anymore, it's too awkward to say something. To end this friendship, At April 4, I must gift her a present that something for her to throw and right after, I'll leave a message giving her the most brutal honest thoughts that I could reveal that to her. if she's sick of it, she wasn't getting used to the way I did... Now that I'm close to April, I should wait for this to happen sooner or later.