adhd core

i hate my fucking adhd meds. sure, im performing better in college, but i got no libido, no energy, i keep fucking dissociating, i hit my vape constantly, i feel numb, DRY MOUTH, its like baby coke. 

having adhd and the addiction gene also sucks. both my parents smoked since their early teens, and my dad grew up in perth, austrailia (basically the drug capital of aussie) and was addicted to h3r0in through his early teens to his 20's . I've been addicted to nic since year 7 (11-12 years old) and since year 10 (14 years old) i smoke leaf daily. fmlll

another issue, is the shame of being neurodivergent - i avoid resourses because im ashamed that im different to the majority, i recoil in hate whenever anyone brings up the fact.

okay rant over, peace

sincerlee, cee