I need to get it together (diary entry one

I've been struggling with my mental health for 4 years now and my behavior the past few days has gotten out of control. I've been acting erratically and aggressive. 

I was able to keep my erratic behavior under control around people But today, maybe because my behavior has been getting increasingly worse that I wasn't really able to keep together today.

Now it's not like I totally lost my shit today cause I wouldn't do that it would ruin my image, however I was quite Snappish today but luckily for me my family is none the wiser and thought my behavior was just me joking around.

Well what I gathered from this day is that I need to get myself together before something slips.