i just got a bf yesterday??

omg like- he was normally a homestuck fan thzt was friend with my friend, but he apparently wanted my discord, at first i hesitated and didnt felt enough stable or well to be socialising and having a new friend, but still, i accepted to give it. 

at first we talked a bit and he was kind, we played once in call and it was chill, i found it awkward a bit ngl but it was fun! 

sadly i then literally disappeared from discord because i didnt felt enough well and mentally stable to even support. a single human living to talk to me, ngl i was getting problematic and toxic or abusive or whatever and i was aware it was bad, so i tried to set myself apart from everyone’s life’s, that night, i tried to end it all, i couldn’t handle the thoughts and memories, just feeling my ex on my back everytime and being in a big pain, but failed, i was to embarrassed so i left my discord account empty, but i still talked to a friend i met recently, then he next day that guy (my bf) was so worried and i felt sad, not a lot of people worry a lot to the point to send so much messages to me, so i talked to him telling i was okay, and a bit later we became more more close easily i know it’s crazy

then he confessed to me which i was so excited and happy, and now we’re dating and he’s just perfect it’s like he was the guy i kept dreaming of my whole life, 

that’s why suicide attempts are and and useless! life still have hopes and things to show and impress you !!!