his birthday !!

haii its been a while since i posted ! but im back and i have sum important things to share !!

marcus's birthday is coming up !! if ure new, marcus is my crush <3 and we both like each other but we're not datinggg (yet!). anw yesh, his birthday is on the 27th, two days after my dad's birthday- and i've gotten so many ideas for it !!

im baking a cake for my dad and thas abt it, since my dad likes simple gifts-same like marcus--he said he prefers quality time over gifts, which is why ill try my best to not spend too much on gifts and instead save money for when we hang out with each other ! unfortunately i love giving and receiving gifts, so ive decided to hand make his gifts ^^ im baking him a cake using milo since he loves milo and im writing him seven letters for the seven months we've known each other ! (sept 28 2024 - march 28 2025; though we met on the 27th but didnt talk until the next day-) 

ive decided to give him a letter a day instead of all of them at once and tmrw ill be giving him his first letter! ill record the letter's contents rn on my next post so i can reflect on it whenever i want :) plus eternally record it onto the internet hehe. 

i cant believe hes turning 18 next week on thursday :") im so exciteddd, unfortunately im not sure if we can hang out on his birthday because i have a pretty busy schedule on thursday (sigh, college) and im sure his friends are gna hang out w him instead :"),, so id love to hang out w him on friday or preferably on saturday !! on friday he ends his classes early, however i only have a two hour break during my classes :/ and i know i wont feel fulfilled if i dont spend atleast 5 hours w him- sooo i was hoping we cld hang out on saturday! but againnn,, maybe he'll be busy with his family over the weekends ? or just busy in general ? AAA IDKKKKK BUT I RLY WNA HANG OUT W HIM DURING HIS BIRTHDAYYYYYY

i made a whole plan that i keep day dreaming abt-
in an ideal world, we'd go for karaoke and spend an hour or two singing :^D 
thennn maybe we'll get smth to eat and roam around shops heheeh
and then go take pictures in one of those polaroid booths ? it'll be so romantic ifhdiugfdh 
the fact i already bought and planned my outfit for the occasion and ION EVEN KNOW IF IM ACTUALLY GNA HANG OUT W HIM YET- ill wear a black short dress (i was so torn b/w black and white haha) :^) i wna look pretty for himmmmm

i havent told him yet thoo, he knows that i bought a dress but he doesnt know *why* i got it, ive been going around the topic by saying its for an event but thas all he'll know from me- 

my "friend" yes ofcourse ;-; I JS WANTED TO SPILL THE SECRET BUT I CANT RUIN THE SURPRISE--

theres one more thing id like to share !!
i asked marcus if i should wear a black or white dress since i didnt know which one wld suit me more- and honestly he confused me even more-- but his response was rly cute :^)

hehe i love him <3

o ya -- this upcoming friday, we're gna go shop for clothes at this one store and hes had his eye on this hoodie for a while and HONESTLYY I THOUGHT OF BUYING IT FOR HIM FOR HIS BIRTHDAY but i rly want him to try it on first and then ill see if ill buy it :') 
if it looks good on him IM NOT LETTING HIM BUY IT cos i wna buy it for him hehee but for his birthday :D so um ill convince him somehow to not buy it-- but if he does.. well i still have his other gifts !

hehehe i love him smm SM SM SM AAAAAAAAA ill start writing the letter now :} I CANT WAIT FOR HIS BIRTHDAYYYYYYYY