HYPERFIXATIONS!!

HAIIIIIIIII

so in this blog entry thing I'll be talking about hyperfixations and how bad it affects me. SO first you watch this random anime/show whatever and you think nothing about it. Then it starts

first, You slowly and slowly start realizing how good of a show it is and how grateful you are to be in the fandom or about how grateful you are for watching. Then is when the glazing and yapping starts..  you talk to your friends about it ALL FUCKING DAY until they are tired and craving to be let go of the psychosis your going through. They beg and grasp the thought of dying whenever you bring your fav character or favorite show. They HATE it when you mention it even when they hear a slight reference or mention they go INSANE because it reminds them of you. you make 1000 edits or save edits about that show and glaze every single speckle of that one favorite character whenever it shows up on your fyp. you start saving up or buying merch from that show or character just because of how good it is. you want it injected into you. no, IN you..  you crave every second of that show and cherish it delightfully. you want everyone in the whole world you LOVE that show and when you see someone with a lot of merch of YOUR favorite show it makes you jealous. when you finally done watching the whole show you or already did you start to question everything and go insane. you want MORE of this show you ABSOLUTELY NEED MORE YOU NEED MORE SEASONS AND EPISODES ESPECIALLY ABOUT THESE 2 CHARACTERS YOUR SHIPPING. you WANT more you MISS that feeling of watching your favorite show. you can always rewatch, but it wont be the same because its not the same feeling of when you were watching it. you were clueless yet excited about new adventures beginning. you start to question yourself about how badly you love that show and why? why do I love this show so fucking much? it makes me go insane. now this is when it REALLY kicks in. You start to overthink about it alot that it starts engulfing your pea sized brain slowly and slowly eating other thoughts away that eventually YOU only care about that show and nothing else. If your not finished with the show or movie your too embarrassed to watch it because "what if the characters make f-fun of me?' you start to question your whole purpose in life and start changing your profile picture to the character that you absolutely glaze.  whenever your doing something, you think "what if my favorite character was watching" so you ABSOLUTELY lock in and pretend your doing whatever your doing majestically so they think your so cool. then is when you kinda lose interest. you move on with your life that you forget. but it will always be in your heart. (what the fuck did I just write 😭)