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Hi cuties !! KAngel here , your internet angel! I wanted to share some aspects of my life.. 
As I'm still a young high school student, ill do my best to please you all and blog at least 3-4 x a week 
, my mental health sucks, but i want to bring awareness of it and at least be a safe space for all you to comment your troubles and let KAngel make them go away 
. I've always been an attention seeker since I was young and wanted people to like me, even as an outcast, turning me into a people pleaser and willing to do anything for attention, p-chan knows that unfortunately, sometimes I feel like I can be too much for him, I depend on him to make every decision, I can't help that my brain turns off when I'm with him (⸝⸝๑ ̫ ๑⸝⸝⸝).. sometimes I feel like I can get pretty jealous if he gives anyone else more attention than me. I love being with p-chan and sticking to him like glue, even if it's unhealthy. I'm too young to be diagnosed with bpd (Bipolar Disorder) although it does run in my family, so the doctors are just telling me I have a mood disorder and shoving medications down my throat, and I hate that so much. Taking meds are the worst, especially because I get aggressive on certain medication or hallucinate on them, I swear doctors just diagnose you with anything so they can give you useless medications so they can get their stupid paycheck... I wish I could be more outgoing and not so shy... I can barely talk to people because I'm scared people will think I'm annoying.. but you won't tell KAngel she's annoying right? You'll love KAngel forever and ever...right?
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MG
You say you don’t think people will accept you as you are, but you’re only in high school! You’ve still got your whole life ahead of you, and there’s no rush to figure everything out. Also just a silly advice but you should try to rely on more than just one person, maybe it can help u defeat your social awkwardness! :D
🙏BLESS🙏
You're right, it is only my second year so hopefully I can become more popular and overcome my social awkwardness..hehe, i still have a lot to explore !! I only rely on p-chan because I'm really scared of opening up but I am thankfully relying on my therapist too ヾ(_ _。）she's teaching me a bit of skills about being able to opening up which I'm thankful for but hopefully I can use this blog to learn how to be able to open up and gain my sense of trust back!
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Blinky
I have huge thanatophobia, and thinking about death is inevitable when my mind is left alone :(
Plus, I have huge gender dysphoria too, and I am basically age regressing surely because of me growing up too fast :((((((((
You are not annoying at all btw
🙏BLESS🙏
thanatophobia is a hard phobia to deal with, especially since everyone these days always talks about death and how we only live to die, I don't like to think about it that way especially since I have thanatophobia too. I like to think about our lives like a dream, a warm comfy dream with soft animals, pretty views and amazing people you'll meet, when we die we wake up from that dream as angels and we've completed our mission, our souls purpose is fulfilled and we're free to do anything we want. Sometimes thinking of it like that makes me feel a bit better about the concept of death. Struggling is apart of life too don't worry, everyone grows up at their own pace, don't let anything or anyone set your pace of growing up, because even when your body gets older that doesn't mean you have to act older, KAngel understands the regression, I do it myself most days when things get stressful !! and about your gender dysphoria, you'll grow into the person you want to become if you believe in yourself and give it some time, even if its hard to wait to see the change, little steps and changes can bring the biggest happiness. ꒰ঌ(˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)໒꒱
by OMGKawaiiangel; ; Report
Thanks for comforting me :'( You are very kind
I have hard time to think that there is something after death, I wish my brain could just believe that it is not finished after last breath. I really relate to what Blaise Pascal says about that divertissement is something you use to not think about death.
I am glad I am not alone to have thanatophobia TwT
by Blinky; ; Report
I'm glad i can be of comfort!! I've never heard of Blaise Pascal so I'll definitely have to chrck that out!
by OMGKawaiiangel; ; Report
I learnt about him in philosophy class and damn it is very accurate
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