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Spent some time on some introspective s thought. I can amaze myself by how I can drag myself down in to the muck, and seem like I can never get out. You find yourself thinking with all of the responsibilities in life, and suddenly it seems to compress you into a little ball, but you can’t find your way out from it.
As I took to things today, I had a wave of crippling anxiety. I went out last night for the first time since Dec. It didn’t bring me up, it more less knocked me down. I found myself missing what I used to to. Then found myself with my more current money worries slapping me in my face. It carried over to this afternoon. I started thinking about all that I wanted to do. It came down to me just wanting to hear someone say that I am some what talented. From me back as a kid playing baseball, even though I did well, I never heard the “wow, he’s good” comments. I just more less got the “meh, he’ll do.” So those thoughts found me today. It sucka.
Even with those haunting thoughts behind me, I was able to work on my solo set for a little bit. The old new songs, it needs work. I think I played in a TOTALLY different tuning when I first wrote it. However, the rest seems to be coming along nicely.
Back to writing...
I told myself, “Shane, don’t worry about writing a new song this weekend.” Well sure as shit, I cobbled something together. It’s amazing what you can do with four chords. They can convey such a powerful message. Reasons why I like the simplicity in music. A few words, and a few chords make all the difference. Updated the Dropbox with these tunes, and slammed a claw or two while doing it. Good times.
Transmission complete. Until next weekend! Five weeks until I’m saved.
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