yapping

i already posted here today but uuuhhhh im literally so bored and i feel bad when i rant to my friends

i feel like they all kinda secretly dislike me PROBABLY JS PARANOID but maybe nawwtt. idk one of my friends js makes me feel shitty a lot of the time. like shes idk js kinda weird towards me. i feel like she doesnt really enjoy being around me or talking to me

and my other closer friend I LOVE HER OFC but im always still so scared that she still doesnt like me. we dated for a bit and i ended things really horribly and was really shitty towards her while we were no contact. i feel so bad for the way i treated her and its kinda all i can think ab when im around her. shes my favorite friend but im not her favorite and it feels weird (im still secretly in love with her. like i have been for years)