vent!!mocks..

ughhh i hate this so much and i feel like i CAN NOT share this with anyone irl cuz its mocks rn and everyone is stressedd

I've had literal panic attacks for the past 2 days which has NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE?? i think it coincides with my depressive state rn and stress/anxiety from mocks, for some context its my first yr 10 mock (uk) i also take 2 coursework subjects and top set in sci + maths so i feel rlly overloaded and pressuring myself ig, and for the past month I've either been sick or busy with events. imo it's completely valid for crashing out but like why dont teachers understand bro especially when they act all concerned and in the end they just tell you to thug it out and that its not that big of a deal, what more do i need to do to prove my suffering to you? what more harm do i need to do to myself for you to consider offering me support? just because of your perception of me? quiet and studious, obedient little student? i hate people i hate perception. I've only really had social anxiety before but now its literally just anxiety and idk how i am gonna function in society rn or in the future at all, i just wanna run away from everything and everyone