IM BACK

HIIIIIIIII I MISSED THISSSSSSS 

so........ a lot of things happened since i stopped posting here, and thats what im going to talk about. i fainted on the laboratory while i was doing my blood test because of my insanely intense period cramp,,,,, after that i went to the hospital and got better really fast after 5 hours there, my mom and grandma were taking really good care of me. i got transfered at work to a place thats like 3min away from my house and i LOVE IT. 

now. i need a paragraph just for this one. im so so sos ososssosososososoos happy cause as i said in ma last entries, i was having some problems deciding what i was gonna do for my branding, my music,, i mean EVERYTHING was stressing me out,,,, but. i decided to just go for what i felt like represented me and my personality the most and im so excited. i changed everything about my blog as you can see, i even changed the posters in my room, my wall is looking like a moodboard rn not even kidding............ im having no problems with choosing the beats for my songs or making them myself, the lyrics are flowinggg everything is flowinggggg magicallyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

im starting to believe that creating is not even creating, like,,,, instead of doing something 100% new that i cant resonate with, i take my personality and what i stand for and transform it into something that people can hear/see/feel/taste and thats what being an artist really is. i personally cant be making music that i cant relate to, or even create a branding that doesnt represent anything, but its cute. but doesnt have a meaning.just cute. it doesnt make any sense, so now, after all that is happening to me, i finally feel that i opened my eyes to this, creating is not necessarely creating. my brand is supposed to represent who i am visually and musically, and theres a LOT of creative ways of doing that. i dont need to be creating a universe when i have mine. is there. we are gifted with a whole world thats just ours, and thats a big ass resource. its a gift. thats my branding.

i feel like i already said too much, even tho theres more for me to say, ill be posting it throughout the month!!!! love u guys, hope you have the nicest coolest day ever!!!!!! cant wait to come back here and share more

kissesssssss, ella