Finally found a goal

After many years of surviving, it felt like hell, I got burnt out, I got ADHD (maybe) I lost interests in everything and I gave up all my dreams, That's how I lived the past months, pure hate and pressure from everyone around, failing university, taking hours to get up from bed, sleeping too much, always tired, it was very exhausting but I did it, I managed to get out of that phase!!

I finally found a reason and a goal, after being so lost and my envirement not helping at all, I got a really messed up mental health, I spent the past 6 years thinking about ending everything everyday, so it was very hard for me to take my life seriously again, and believe that I can do it.

I found my goal and it's simple ^^ I just want to leave my hometown and live alone in a small apartment, a simple life, and I can study and work at the same time, and I can finally chill freely alone in my house, I can spend money however I want, with no one telling me you're wasting your money, that's what I want („• ֊ •„)

I have many many reasons why I want that and there are so many that I can't write them here, I'll post them in the future (๑>◡<๑)

Many will see it as a road or a way to get somewhere, but to me, it means everything, I promised myself to go slow and believe in myself. 

A mistake I did a lot was putting too much pressure on myself and unrealistic goals,like owning a car, a big house and having a well paying job by the age of 18yo, while I had only 10months left. all these doesn't come within 10 months, especially with these prices.

I felt very happy today, it was the first time in long ago since I last felt this way.

Thank you for reading this far (づ˶•ᵕ•˶)づ♡ hugs for everyonee!!! <333