humans and their scary existence

i am sad, and wistful to look at most humans and see that they suffer because of their intellect so they dont use it, they prefer to act with their unonscious and subconscious, its sad that most of them haves a critical judgment when they think they need it and likes things because that match with their subconscious likes, so they dont even use their intellect for that and just mark some beliefs that they heards in their flesh, but still its not them, theyre just taking pieces and marking those pieces together in their flesh and bones, but by doing that they dont get why they like that and the essence of what they like, theyre just following everything, and thinking soetimes they likes something because it match with their likes, but are they really liking this ? Theyre acting with their subconscious becase they want to avoid the intellect since its foggy for the mind and its revealing some judgments on the environnement, and its scary to notice all the details, but mostly i think they want to avoid, the intellect because its saying things deeply on them, they want to avoid to see themselves in the mirror. They want to avoid the fac that they exist and they are mortals on a planet among "infinity". its a survival mechanism to live quietly with an illusion of hapiness. at the end they are just surviving and living in an illusion, its like they are living in a simulation, their days are already written and they are following the writing illusionly But at the end the brain is not enough elvolved to be used 24/24. that is why humans uses programs most of the time. But in ths case sure its not tiring but humans are surviving and not living. im even myself deeply saddened because i am currently living in a human costume so i have those tendencies like all humans.