comparison is the theif of joy

its been a while since i've written here,, honestly not much in the feelings department has change tbh. i feel like things have gotten slightly better but i still feel the same? like idk things are fine like i have a loving boyfriend and i got my ged but still,, things dont feel great. i dont think i have anything to feel so terrible abt- other than the fact that i am literally behind in life- and i know theres like no specific time and date for certain things in life but it just feels that way when im already so behind compared to people i know. i dont know. all i do is compare myself- to artists, friends, strangers,, literally anyone who i think looks better or is doing better than me. i just want to be better now. i want to be the person ive always dreamt of being now. i want to be happy and content now.