I want to make it first.

Juno here

I just had this idea when I was showering and had to run out to write it down. 

So, yesterday I went out and when I do, I usually tend to try to be my alter ego. Like, I do my hair in a certain way, dress in a certain way, and do my makeup in a certain way. Really step out of my comfort zone, because if I were not my alter ego I wouldn't dress that way or do my makeup that way. Doing this I build a reaaally strong energy and vibe that I really like and that´s when I know I´m being Her. I feel like her, I walk like her, I talk like her. This energy is so strong that it usually stays around for the next day, and when I was taking a shower a minute ago, I started to think a little about her. Thinking of her makes me also think about the best version of myself, that "Me" that I want to meet someday.

I always had this thought that nobody really feels like a competition for me. And maybe now you´re thinking: "She's so cocky", and let me tell you; I´m not saying that I´m better than anybody, I´m talking from my self-perspective. As I see it, I only care about being better than my past self. Today I´m trying to do better than yesterday. I only see my future self (note: my future self is the previous of the best version of myself, just in case) as my competition. Because she is even closer to my best self, I try to think about what is she doing, or what habits she has. What would she do in the situation I´m currently in. What would she do in the mornings, throughout the day? What achievement would she accomplish today?

Until I came to this thought: I want to make it first. I won´t let my future self do it before me. I don´t want her to do it first. I want to accomplish that achievement TODAY. I want to cut that toxic person today. I want to fix my nails today. I want to start studying for 6 hours today. I want to beat that personal record today. I won´t let her do it tomorrow. I want to win her.

Because we all tend to see this version of ourselves so far away from us, so ahead in time, that we don´t really know how to take action, or we wait until we´re ready. YOU ARE NEVER GOING TO BE READY, JUST START. Just start the gym, start writing, start going to that dance class, start that career, start studying, start going out alone, start reading that book. Even and ESPECIALLY if it´s uncomfortable for you. We need to step out of our comfort zones in order to change because if not, we´re going to stay the same forever. We need to change, to start our future self habits, to do what they do. 

So make a question to yourself: "What would the best version of myself do today?" and start. Even if it is small. Baby steps are better than no steps at all.

I really wanted to share this as it may fly away from my mind in a couple of days and I wanted to have a register.

xoxo