From "passion w/ no talent" to "talent w/ no passion"

I know, Tiktok ahh name. Anyway,

I have always admired art and loved going to art museums just to stare at paintings and analyse the way the brush strokes went on the canvas, the colors, the perspective, and anything else.

No matter how much I tried, I was never born with this talent. I would always fail in trying to make anything that was close to their gorgeous art.

At some point I just gave up and started to root myself in my room, just rotting and staring at walls. Meanwhile, I met this girl who later became my neighbour. She was so much more than me in my eyes. Pretty, assertive, smarter and more had passion. She also loved a bit of attention here and there; at some point, she asked me to take some pictures for her with my phone for her Insta because I had a better phone camera. When she looked at the result, she was so surprised at how they turned out, telling me I knew how to put her good features in evidence.

Thereafter, I became her personal photographer. I did not mind it. She would take me out of my room more often; I would breathe some fresh, not-so-stale air while doing something I slightly enjoyed.

In time I discovered a passion for photography, buying myself a camera, going to a photography club, and being praised a lot because I was actually good in some people's eyes, but now. I just feel like I simply have no energy for anything anymore.

Even after I did win some very few photography contests, and I did show my works, I believe that this passion is useless. I feel like I lost the spark that I once had holding a camera. I ended up isolating myself in my room again.

I hate this; I miss the energy I had once. Everyone tells me that I am missing out on a great talent and passion, but what is even a photographer good for when AI and such performing phone cameras exist? I feel like the future for any artist is futile nowdays.