incapable

i often write about love, despite growing up in a chaotic home.

i heard "i love you" countless times, even though i felt like i was incapable of truly feeling it.

speaking of love when i've never truly experienced it feels a bit hypocritical, doesn't it?

yet, i believe we all deserve to feel it at least once in our lifetime.

a love so profound and hopeful that it leaves us chasing that high for the rest of our eternal existence.

in all honesty, i fear love, the kind that lays you bare, rendering you vulnerable and liberated, where emotions pulse raw and unguarded.

it scares me, terrifies me even.